“I’m Not Going To Waste My Time On People Who Don’t Want To Waste Their Time On Me…”
I used to live in this context. You see it all the time in relationships - boyfriends/girlfriends get mad at the other for not making time for them, and then passive aggressively express their anger. Eventually it’ll come out in more frightening ways than you could imagine (that’s the anger stewing in there).
I’m grateful that I don’t live in that space anymore and I like to believe that I learned to live in a different state of BEING at the exact time I needed it. I had many failures in the past - especially in relationships, because I was selfish and gave up on myself (I didn’t deserve to be happy).
Someone told me once that “Everything is empty and meaningless…and it’s empty and meaningless that it’s meaningless…” I was pissed. I said ‘fuck you dude’ my life means something! After many weeks of drinking by myself I finally got it. It is meaningless…so I’m free to add any type of meaning to it I want. I’ve since decided to always live in contribution and gratitude. I’ll never spite anyone in my life again because I can only control what I bring to the table - and I always want that to be a space of growth, friendship, and contribution.
Who can you contribute to today?
-Duane
PS. My eyes are stuck…take me seriously…
